Why hello xanga, long time no blog.

So I guess here goes, well as of now I realize how old I'm getting and as I look back at my old blog entries and just looking back in general at how young I was I can't help it but smile at myself, smiling at how simple I was not to mention wierd. And yet I'm still young, still growing but I can't help but to feel that the growing up thing is happening too fast. I need to catch myself. Alot of my firsts have come and gone, and the best ones still yet to come. I like taking a stroll in memory lane looking at the past. Mind you not dwell on the past, but to just take a nice apperciative look-back at things that happened, wonderful as they are. And oh how I miss those days. And how I so want to live in that time frame once again, experiencing those memories all over again. But we all know we can't go back, I can't go back no matter how hard I wish it, it won't happen. But what keeps me going is when I look back at my walk with God up to now, the great lenghts my journey has taken. I look at the work of his hands in my life, and where has taken me. All of this helps me push forward to the unknown future still ahead of me. I dont know what's going to happen, and I dont know what on earth I'm going to be doing but it's all in God's big ol' book just waiting for the right time for it to happen.

If your love cannot be moved

You can't sing a song without a melody

You can't say we're one without unity

You can't look at me and see yourself

You can't serve the rich and desert poor

You can't hear their cries and just close the door

You can't find the serum and not cure the sick

You can't see wrong and just go along

You can't say the words and not move your lips

You can't be confused and say you understand

You can't say you will and make sure you won't

You can't give up and then take back all you give

You can't be a friend but not through thick and thin

You can't wait for change and not know what you need to do

Say that your truth will never lie

If your love cannot be moved.

 Ahhh. its been almost a month since my last blog entry  ,  and here I was saying to myself I'll do one every week... well a lot of things have been going on in my oh so interesting life. First off, our church 5th anni. was a success and our dance was too, thank you for all those who beared with me through my frustrations and 'bossyness'. BUT nonetheless i'm happy of the turnout of the dance itself.. what elseeee, I just found out i'm the only 'A' in english class haha with an 86%. lol, not exactly my best mark for english but its an 'A' so im satisfied. I feel like i'm finally back on track with GOD, and its been an amazing experience ever since, I see how he works in my life everyday starting from the moment I wake up to the moment my eyes close to fall asleep. Especially this week when GOD gave me a splash of water in the face to wake up me up

It all started in english class we were talking about 'making a difference' and how youth like me and even younger has done so in the past and still is. I always said to myself that I can make a difference.. I really can but really in the back of my head said that "I can't make a difference, I mean IM JUST ONE PERSON, what can I do?" With that in my mind my teacher told me a story during the Cold War between the US and Russia, when they had these nuclear missles aimed at each countries cities. And there was this one guy called Petrov a Russian guy who was on the graveyard shift to watch the radar for any incoming missles, and then suddenly he heard the a faint beeping noise that grew louder and louder. He looked over the radar screen and there he saw it .. two american missles heading their way. Now he was strictly told that when he sees ANYTHING on the radar that he should press the red button, (yes what a cliché) to launch the russian missles to attack the US. So he literally just stood there for 1hour straight thinking whether he should do it or not. All he had to do was press the red button to launch the missles as ordered. He was shaking, and did not know what to do. He was thinking 'this is a computer malfunction... it has to be.' so after an hour he decided not to press the button and found out IT WAS a computer malfunction. He told his commander and he ended up getting demoted for not obeying orders. This one man, on his graveyard shift had the power to launch these missles and potentially start a nuclear war or create a nuclear winter, either one was just as horrible. He had the power to change history, and all it took was to make a decision to press the button despite a computer malfucntion. and im just like *SPLASH* water in the face, at that point I knew what God was trying to tell me...  and I began to think about all 'the one person' that made a difference, Martin Luther King Jr, Mother Teresa.... JESUS!!      and I guess in conclusion to this story, you may just be ONE PERSON, but sometimes it takes just one person to change the world or change history for that matter, the question is .. are you willing to be that ONE PERSON?  

HEY XANGA, long time no blog huh? I'm just reading my past entries (; lol, very interesting. All right before anything else UPDATES? I think it calls for it: WELL its 07, another year and another sem, pretty exciting... new challenges and new faces, everything seems to be so new, but there's ONE who stays constant no matter what year it is, same old GOD (:  samd old bestfriend who's been there for me through thick and thin. I'm just excited for this year and what HE is going to do. Other than that everything is back on a regular basis: school, homework (3academics), youth, and everythingelse inbetween. and I nearly burned my house down  ): lol steffi knows all about it and she took pictures ! LOL   

Happy Birthday To Me <3